Oh, hello there.

What are you up to?

Hopefully you're not solemnly up to no good.

Hope you got the reference.

Honestly, I don't even know what to say for my first note. And I've got a bunch of things I have to finish. But instead, here I am, anything to procrastinate. I swear one day I'm gonna ruin myself if I keep continue doing things this way.

Have I told you that I've started teaching in high school yet? There, you've got the news. And I'm sure as hell that I'm not ready to talk about this yet since I'm still trying to get used to how things are going. This is the third month and honestly I'm still not used to any of these circumstances.

And finally I live by myself. Precisely, I live by myself for 5 days a week, since I keep going home on weekends lol. Actually it's really not that far from my hometown, but since I'm a weakling and unable to ride a long ride, it's decided that I got to rent a house.

Which made me think to be careful for what you're wishing for. Because may be you can't handle any of it. Like what happens to me.

My mother has been sick for awhile. It's almost every two weeks that she has to be admitted to  hospital. She's on the 4th stage of kidney failure and now she has to have dialysis two times a week. I don't even know how to feel. It's just been really hard.

Last year, I kinda wished to live by myself away from my hometown. All the rubbish about being independent and to be able to stand on my own two feet. Who'd have thought that when I actually got the job, my mother health just keeps deteriorating.

It's nobody's fault though. This is just how things are right now. We don't know what would happen in the future. I don't even dare to wish for anything aside from my mother's recovery.

Time sure is fleeting. Our moments are just as fragile. I don't even care about the future anymore, because what we have right now is just the... now. Funny when you realize that every now could become so priceless. 

I just hope that I could spend more time with my mother and our family members. Now that I think about it we don't even have many family photographs. Wait, do we even have any?

I just wish for more and more and more time for all of us. Am I expecting too much?

Oh, dear. I don't mean to share something sad from the very start. Anyway, thank you for somewhat visiting this blog. I don't usually write something sad, really. Just for this time since I don't even have a topic to talk about.  

Finally, have a nice day.